The Moments

Dear Xavier,

I wonder sometimes, when you’re all grown up and have kids of your own, will I remember the moments? Will I remember the moments as you were drifting off to sleep and you’d grab my thumb, wrap your fingers around it and hold on like it was a lifeline into the day? How as I’d lay you down your grasp would become even tighter? Will I remember the moments you reward me with a smile bigger and brighter than the sun, for no other reason than I’m your Mama? Will I remember the small, still moments that take my breath away even now as it dawns on me that you’re my son  and I get to keep you?

Will I remember the moments? Will I tell you about them?

I sure hope so.

I love you.

Mama