Oh How I Miss You

Blog! I need to write, just write to write. Nothing significant in this post, but there has not been much time and the urge and need to write has been building up. So I thought I’d give a general Adams family update. Good news is I included some cute pictures of my loveys, so it’ll make it worth the read.

True, things have been just a bit different around our house the past month. One month exactly. Since one month ago we welcomed our newest family member. We’re adjusting well, but I’m also still adjusting to being a Mama of two. My short term gig of “Stay At Home Mom”. SAHM. I’ve always wanted it as a job title but never ever have we been able to make it work. That’s okay, this is a great time to experience it.

I’m loving being at home with my kiddos, Xavier is awesome. I forget sometimes, a lot of times, that he’s only 4 weeks old. That 4 week olds do fuss a lot when they’re tired, hungry, dirty diaper… because hello! they can’t come out and tell us. I’d forgotten how much they sleep. Vastly different experience than with Miss P. With Praysie it was just me and her. When football started it was literally just me and her as R was gone by 5:30 in the morning, home by 11:00 at night during 2-a-days. I rarely put her down. As in, never. We just cuddled and snuggled and loved. Of course later whenever she’d be asleep and I’d put her down I’d wonder why she kept waking up all the time… Lessons of a first time Mom.

But none the less, he’s so great. There’s nothing like cuddling a newborn, especially mine When he’s awake and alert he has the most beautiful blue eyes which I know he’ll most likely lose at some point but for now I just lose myself in them. His facial expressions crack me up and he’s recognizing and interacting more and more with his big sister. I feel a sense of guilt I can’t give him the same attention as his big sis got, but he is loved and he will know it. He knows it now, but someday he’ll consciously know it. There are times true, he has to tough it out because there are times I have to get something off the oven or in the oven, or helping P. But I have slightly thicker skin this time around as well, I know he’ll be okay. We’re continuing to learn more about each other, and I think “Shame on me for being opposed to the pacifier (babu) this time around.” I fought it, which was fine b/c X was (and still does about 70% if the time) as well. But as I see him for the first time in weeks sleep in the swing for more than 10 minutes and he was able to put himself to sleep with the pacifier, I realize we’re making progress and getting there. Raising kids is such a continual work in progress no matter their age isn’t it?

Prayse? Well she continues to be a rock star. Sure, we have our moments. Mostly when she’s tired which, 10:00 pm bedtimes aren’t helping but it’s just so nice out, hard to stop playing Every time Xavier is crying she is my eyes and ears and comes running, “Mooooooom! Brother NEEDS you!”As he’s crying she whispers speaks into his ear, “It’s okay, don’t cry! We love you! It’s okay buddy! We love you Xavier Ray!” I’ve told her a couple of times, “I need Mama/Prayse time.  Just me and you. What do you think?” Her answer has always been, “AND brother.” She has made some new friends as we continue to build relationships with more families at church, it’s been fun to see her interact with some girls! We love all the boys, but to see some girlfriends is great. Some who are just as “outgoing” as my daughter, she’s met her match a few times and the results have been wonderful. I grow to love her more everyday I think. Even the days I want to ship her off She’s still precious and get the same amazing hugs and kisses at night, I can’t help but reciprocate.

My hubby? Well I have a whole post waiting for him But he’s been so awesome. He is juggling a more than full plate with work, family, our house and the little things that still need to be done. He’s done it with grace and patience. He is tired and yet makes it a priority to hang out with Prayse, he took her just tonight to go with him to pick up a few things he needs for the house. He misses the time he’s gone and recognizes the need for Daddy to be in her life. It’s amazing to see as we grow up and mature the people we continue to become. It’s no wonder I’m still in love with him 10+ years later.

Me? I’m doing good. Making it one day at a time. Looking forward to getting the go ahead to work out again. Nothing crazy or intense but just something. I mentioned how much I love my days at home, it’s a balance of making sure things get done and that I’m there for my kiddos. The biggest challenge is trying to make sure they get what they need from me, it’s tough! My respect for the full time SAHMs continues to grow. But I’m loving making play dates and getting to know a few other moms better myself. It’s a challenge and one I’m enjoying conquering and growing in.

She loves him so.

There is no moment in our life that is not a perfect moment to pose!

It’s blurry but perfectly captures of what my life is like! Trying to hold on to both of them and barely managing it, ha ha! But we all (well, kind of X) have smiles on our face, so that’s what it’s all about.

My son and I, ahh how I love those words.

There are times it can only be a Daddy’s touch. I love this picture, has maybe some of my genes sneaked their way into this child?? Maybe, just maybe.

Prayse and her man little girl’s best friend.

Making the most of summer!