Dear Prayse, I love our precious moments together

My Dearest Prayse,

We’ve been having a morning. A relaxing, nothing pressing us morning. You are sitting next to me munching on some cereal and strawberries with your earphones in watching Dora on the iPod. Who cares that we’re not interacting, we’re just being together. Me with my coffee and computer, sitting next to each other.

I can’t focus, I keep looking over toward you and giving you kisses. Telling you over and over, “I love you so much”, knowing you’re sole focus is elsewhere. It’s a good thing in the past 3+ years you’ve gotten used to loves b/c you get a lot of them.

I love watching you do a lil dance in your seat to the music, yelling out things with Dora/Diego and the little girl things that come out of your mouth like, “Blue PlaneK”! (Always planeK, not planeT – I won’t correct you, b/c at the age of 3 who cares?). Our lazy Saturday mornings are my favorite – and our life is about to change.

I feel your brother moving in my belly even now and think, “Wow – 4ish weeks and our lives will be changed forever.” I know you’ll rock this transition. It may take some patience and extra love and snuggles – but you my friend are so great at rolling with the punches, handling whatever comes our way. So much better than your Mama.

Will I handle this as well as you? Our girl time Saturday mornings or our Girls Only Friday Night sleepovers – they’ll either drastically change or become a thing of the past. I’m not sure I’m ready to let this go friend, I love our girl time. I’ll love having Brother with us too, he’s cool ya know, I can already tell. I can tell he’s going to be very similar to you.

But I just want you to know that while it’s been just you and me kiddo, it’s been awesome. I love it. I love our chats. I love our little adventures. I love being two peas in a pod when you ask if we’re having a Girls Day.

I am so proud of you and who I am seeing you become. I am completely perplexed on why I was given this amazing blessing and amazing responsibility of being your Mom. I know that we won’t lose all of our moments, our time together – but I do know our lives are going to change. I just want to make sure you 100% understand one day, that I have loved our years with just you. I have loved getting to know you and watching your personality develop.

You make us laugh like no one else. Your reasoning is hilarious and while not accurate, sometimes actually makes sense. You are so excited to be a Big Sister and you are going to rock this thing. You are protective of Brother even now and wanting to make sure he’s doing good.  You are awesome.

Our girl time may change, but we’ll still make it a priority lovey. I just can’t go without my bestest little buddy and our dates. It’s what I look forward to everyday, a special sense of reality and what is important that nobody else can bring.

I love you babe, thanks for being my girl.

Love,
Mama