What

I have to leave tomorrow morning and spend the remainder of the week in Dallas for work – so Miss P is hanging out at Grandma and Grandad’s house for a few days. We have been talking about it all week – she is pumped to go see Abbey (the dog), Misty (the other dog) and of course Grandma and Grandad. As she rode away in the backseat of Grandma’s car with a huge grin and a wave I broke just a little bit. Not a total meltdown – no tears running down my face, I’m proud of myself for that fact.

But my baby is growing up – out of necessity. She is spending the night and her Grandparents’ house without me! And excited about it! I came home tonight to an empty house. The last time this happened – I was pregnant. I didn’t even think about it until I unlocked the door and a wave of emotion and memories assaulted me. It is almost surreal to think that our lives revolve around our children to the point when they’re not here – even for a bit we think, “Now what?” I’m not ashamed (okay – maybe a little bit) to say that I sat down at P’s desk in her room and just looked around, thinking about her, thinking about me, thinking about how my life has so drastically changed the past two years – all for the better. Sacrifices- well worth it.

But changed it has – we just go with the flow, adapting to the new way of life without realizing it until we get a moment to stop and breathe. This type of change is a good change. My life is so much more fulfilled – so crazy – but so good.

Still though – I’ll take advantage of the evening. I think I’ll go see a movie with my husband – now there’s a new concept!