Stream of Consciousness

We’re all friends so I’ll be completely honest – I’m a couple martinis and maybe a couple glasses of wine into this post. It was a good night. I’m in Florida, there were tears on the plane – and then I focused on work. It’s a vicious cycle really – but one I atleast recognize, even if I don’t change the pattern.

It’s always interesting to get with this group – they are all millionaires and executives within the company. And then there’s me. They never, ever have made me feel less than them – but let’s be honest, when we’re talking about buying $400,000 – $600,000 boats…  I’m a bit out of my league. But I recognize it – and know when to keep quiet. It’s interesting really, that by keeping quiet you can make yourself look much smarter – or maybe its the avoidance of looking stupid, which by default could look like “smart.” Maybe? Maybe not – but I’ve figured out which discussions to observe and which to participate.

I was surrounded by Jon’s best friend and at the end of the night by his son and daughter-in-law who also happen to be some of my closest friends. I loved hearing about Jon, laughing about Jon, sharing about Jon. Also a vicious cycle – there is so much laughter, but at one point the stupid thought keeps flowing through your head that they will only be memories – that’s all – and so you focus on the next story. It makes you fall in love with the person that he is all over again. The risks he took (even in the last few months) for his friends without beign on anyone’s payroll – just because he loved. Death threats – in order to help those he loved, with no return for himself. We should all be so lucky to know someone like him. The term “one in a million”? This time, it’s true.