Posted by Tiffany in Prayse, Travel | 4 Comments
“It’ll be good for you.”
Raymonn and I are going to spend a week in Puerto Rico, compliments of my work. I won a vacation through my job when I was around 5 months pregnant with Prayse. Last year I couldn’t bear to leave her so they let me roll it into this year, of course I wait until the final two weeks of the year to take advantage of it. I am excited to go, we’re staying at the Wyndam Resort right outside of San Juan, on the beach! I just keep thinking of margaritas, reading a juicy love novel while relaxing on the beach in my sexy little two piece (blinding everyone around me because my skin has not seen the sunlight since my few days in Vegas in July), snorkeling, and blackjack tables!
Raymonn and I will be celebrating our four year anniversary – holy cow. FOUR YEARS! And I know that it will be great to be a sexy wife, a sexy woman, and still be a Mom… but that’s the part I’m struggling with. It makes me want to cry. As much as I know that I need this break, Raymonn and I need time to focus on us… to leave Prayse for an entire week makes me want to break down. I would be STUPID to give up this trip and so I won’t.
Everyone tells me that “It’ll be good for you!” And they are right of course. But Prayse and I are bestest buds, I don’t even like going all day at work without seeing her and am often found spending an early lunch hour with her playing at school.
One thing that eases my mind is the fact that I know she’ll be in good hands. Her Aunt Chelsea and Grandma Ferguson will be here, and I’ve found my new favoritest nanny/babysitter in the entire world. Ashley works at KB and has spent a lot of time with Prayse. We’ve also been having her over for dinner about once a week so that Prayse can see her in our house with Raymonn and I around. Ashley will be watching Miss P for the weekend when we first leave and Prayse LOVES her! Even at school now when she sees Ashley she takes off in her cute little bow-legged sprint to get a hug. That makes me feel better, I know that she’ll have a fun time. I’m thinking of all the fun things they’ll be able to do that week, I’ll have crafts ready to go, money for the Children’s Museum, a coupon for an inside play park, and a camera so that they can take lots of pictures of their week.
It will be a good week, for both of us. I just know I’ll miss her and am already looking forward to coming home and getting my snuggles.
I promise it will be better than you think. I was absolutely terrified to leave Bailey and go to Florida in september. I thought I would just be sick with missing her, and think about her all the time. Yeah, I thought about her some… but it was more like “I wonder what she’s doing… I wish I could hug her” kind of thing. We knew she was in great hands and we had so much fun just being together. By the last day I was excited to just GET HOME though
Just think of it as a gift to Prayse! The best thing you can give her is a mommy and daddy who love each other unconditionally and a solid foundation! She will love you for it and being away just makes the reunion even sweeter!
Love you guys!
Talk about mixed emotions – excited about the trip and the opportunity to get away and be a wife but anxious and sad to be leaving your baby behind.
Why is it so difficult?? It will be good, for you, Raymonn and Prayse, but that doesn’t change the way you feel now. I think the actual leaving is the hardest part, but once you get down there and your relaxing and enjoying yourself and each other, you’ll find that the time goes by fast and that it really is where you need to be.
I am so jealous! I totally understand not wanting to leave your little one, though.