Clear Epic

I’ve been a bit quiet on my blog this past week. It’s been a rough week. I have been contemplating what to write, if I should write, how much should I say what’s been on my mind…

I could tell everyone how we’ve been sick, it’s been going around… but it’s not what has been on my mind. We have had an accident within my family. I wasn’t sure if I was going to blog about it because it is not my story to tell, but have decided to write. If only to see if a few more prayers could be sent up.

The details may not be 100% there but here is what I know. My 16 year old cousin was in an accident. He lives in a small town in Montana where train tracks go through town. Both he and a friend were crossing the tracks and didn’t hear the train until it was too late. She got across, James almost got across. Do you remember what it feels like when you are driving and a semi-truck passes by? Your car gets sucked toward the semi a bit? This is apparently what happened to James and his coat got caught and he got thrown. He is alive, praise God. Seriously, Praise God! But he does have a long road ahead of him. There has already been one surgery to repair a lot of vascular damage to his leg and set a broken arm, but I have a feeling there will be many more to come.

When I first heard the news it was only, “James got hit by a train, he was walking across the tracks and got hit. He is alive.” My first reaction, a gut-wrenching fear that he wouldn’t make it. My second reaction, hit the floor, hit it hard and pray. It’s amazing that five minutes after I hung up with my Mom my sister-in-law called. Both her and my mother-in-law are prayer warriors, I handed the phone to Raymonn and he passed along the news with a request to pray.

I keep thinking, what if I didn’t have this outlet? What if I didn’t have the faith I have now? By no means am I perfect, far from it. There are days I feel as though I’m the worst example of what a Christian can be, as we all are in various moments. But all I know is that in times like these I am so thankful for my faith. I am so thankful that I have a God who is bigger than any circumstance, even when I don’t believe it, He still is. This is why I believe what I believe. I HAVE to. I cannot handle life if there was not Someone who was in control, I could not handle life if this is all there was to it. There is Someone watching out for us and there is a better life after this where we will be united again with those we love. Period.

Disagree with me if you wish, call this a “crutch” if you wish. It is perfectly fine to disagree, that is the beauty of free will. I am fine agreeing to disagree. Can I make one request however, whatever it is that you believe would you send up a prayer? Wish some good karma? Think good thoughts for an easy recovery for my cousin, James? We’ll take them all.

Thank you friends.